Last month I posted two articles about relapsing with sleeping pills. It took about five weeks, but I was able to successfully wean off of them altogether with the help of psilocybin. Admittedly, I’ve also been taking Benadryl on occasion. My plan is to take half Benadryl as opposed to a whole one because it has been linked to dementia- but again, lack of sleep is also linked to dementia, so I’ll pick my battles!
One key aspect of this has been going to bed and getting up at about the same time each day. My natural circadian rhythm is to go to sleep at midnight and get up at eight, so I’ve been honoring that. I would much prefer a ten to six schedule, but for now this seems to be working.
Notably, the main reason I relapsed is because I was overwhelmed with the state of our country. That’s where the psilocybin comes in- it has helped me with my anxiety and depression. I’m still experimenting with dosages and frequency, but it has made a difference. I have a macrodose scheduled in a couple weeks- I’ll keep you posted on that.
Life is changing quite rapidly and there is a lot of reality and adulting to contend with in the coming months. My hope is that I’ll have the presence of mind to show up and handle things accordingly.
Most days I want to live. The glimmers are returning. Day by day my friends.